Entrusting Her to the Father

6 Jul

About 3 or 4 weeks ago, our daughter went to her regular check up and some of her lab work came back strange.  So more tests were run and today we finally heard that every thing checked out fine the second time.  However her CD4 count is down a little, and her viral load (which previously was undetectable) was now detectable but  low.  So for now she will stay on her current meds.

Through the past few weeks  I let my mind occasionally drift off to various “what ifs” scenarios.  Thinking through “what ifs” only leads to worries for me.  I had to continually remember that I need to entrust my daughter to my Heavenly Father and not worry about her health.  Worrying is a sin, a sin I can easily slip into.  I think the tricky part is that I am parenting a child that does have health problems that I can not control. 

So I can worry about her health in the future or I can choose to trust God with her future.

Trusting God with her health is easy to say but hard to do.  For me it has to be a daily choice.  If I think of a “what ifs,” I have to think…I choose to trust you, Lord.  And then try to think of something else, or stop and pray for my daughter’s health.   So even though her viral load was up and her Cd4 count was down, I choose to trust the Father.

Psalms 56:3 “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.”

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